The Damage I've Done

Oh, God. I'm scared I never will repair the damage I've done.

I'm doing something I rarely do and enlisting the advice of others... Not using any names, or course, I feel I'm left with no other choice. I know what I need to do, and I know they are going to tell me the same thing I already know. But it's good to get confirmation, ya know?

Thanks for making me feel better, Stranger who doesn't know enough about me to conclude that I am a "good person." However, your comments won't stop the self-loathing. I am not a good person.

I just wonder if I do this thing, will it be all for naught? I feel the damage has already been done. Loss of trust is damn near irreparable, so what am I supposed to do now? If it's the case that I'll lose everything, then I'll just start over from scratch.

I just don't want to be seen as this person in your eyes. And I'm going to be seen as this person in the eyes of so many by the time this is all said and done.

I should have taken that opportunity to get away when I had the chance.

I'll be right there beside you
When the walls are caving in
I'm not going anywhere
But when I let you down
look past your doubt.
Just please, please,
don't lose your faith in me.
Please don't lose your faith in me.