All Cheese and No Whine!

I feel like my friends don't want me around. I know that's not true, but I feel left out I guess? That's okay. I've got work to do here anyway. I don't need any distractions.

So this happened; prepare for cheese:

A: I hate touch screens ahahahahaha!
Me: I do too! Let's go be Amish.
A: I think we can still be thrifters and be amish, i am in
I am gonna craiglist us a horse and buggy
Me: Hahaha! If I can wear my cosby swearter with the bonnet, I'm all in!
A: I swear, you read my mind
Me: I tapped into your wavelength
A: Our frequencies are pretty similar
Me: It's a rare occurrence!
A: Lol super rare, ur just cool
Super cool
Voodoo lady
Me: It's a private practice. ;)
A: Super secret?
Me: The superest of secrets
A: You indeed have powers...
Super powers!
Me: I can't control my powers though. They just kinda happen.
I want to trade them in for time control.
A: I can arrange that... muhahaha
Me: Do I have to sell my soul to you?
Because I will.
A: No, just share it.
I would keep your soul in a special place.
Me: Hm... That sounds like a good deal!
A: Only if you take my soul, even trade
Me: I could do that
A: Be nice to it, very sensitive lol


Then the conversation changed back into more mundane talk (though nothing we talk about is really mundane to us). The point is this made me smile. A lot. A lot a lot. And actually, just as I was typing this out, he texted me "I want your soul!" which made me smile again, especially because of the timing. I'd like to go more into detail about him and who he is because my blog doesn't know. Maybe he's mentioned somewhere in my 2008-2010 blog archives. But I'm not sure if he was around then... I think it was before that. Anyway, he makes me smile like and idiot and feel all giddy. This is what I meant when I said, a few blog posts ago, that I haven't felt this way in a long time. It's nice. But there are always "buts." I always have excuses and reasons... I'll let you know about those later when I go more in depth about this.

I need to make one long post where everything is continued. Where I go in depth about everything I've been meaning to. I will do that. I will do it soon.

So... I've got three more days of class. Then three finals. I've got to start and finish two final projects this weekend. My procrastination has, as always, gotten the best of me. But since I'm kind of excited about these projects, I think I'll actually work on them quite a bit this weekend. I chose today to sleep in and relax because it's the first day I get to that in a week.

Anyway, I've got some things to do, and I'd like to go to bed soon. I've been going to bed pretty early these last few nights, and I'd like to make it a habit. I quite like getting a fair amount of sleep, even if I do still wake up tired and do still feel tired every waking moment of my life. At least it feels good to have tried to get some sleep.

More later, as always.

A million little pieces

While I'm lying in bed on my phone, I figure I might as well blog.

So, today has been mostly good. I woke up at 7am (after nearly 10 hours of sleep... Still didn't feel rested). I started and finished a 6-page paper and turned that in super early. Had to cuz it was due today and I had to skip that class this afternoon since I don't have the book for it. I tried hard to get that book! Not a single copy can be found in this entire county. I know. So, I got some important, previously stressful stuff done in Graphic Design. I got my extremely stressful registration error worked out (not all of them, but the most important one).

I hope after school is out I can write down my life from summer to now to future plans because so much is missing from here. Very personal things that I wish I had recorded when they happened. I was just so stressed and never in the mood to write over the summer, and this semester I've been super busy and more social than ever.

There are some personal relationships I wish to discuss here,  but  I don't feel typing out that much detail on my phone. I'll go more in depth later, but in short, P and I are supposedly dating again. I have mixed feelings about it. I'm super interested in someone else, especially after spending time with him for the first time in years. I don't feel like this makes me a bad person at all. Not after how emotionally damaged I've been by P.

I saw Jamie FINALLY for the first time in almost two years. Gives me the warm and fuzzies just remembering it.

I almost, ALMOST did something that would blow your mind if I told you. I won't tell you until I actually do it. Because it will probably happen soon.

I've got big BIG plans for the summer that I'm debating whether or not to talk about here. I've decided to keep it a secret from most everyone else for now. I don't want them to find out until it's happening.

This time next week I'll be done with classes for the semester.

When I think,"What else should I talk about," a million things flood my mind at once, so I'm just going to stop here. It's 8pm, and I am going to bed. This ain't me.

Climbing

This is my last week and a half of this semester. That means I've got a mountain of work to do before then. But I'm climbin'.

I've had "you're gonna carry that weight" on my mind today. The phrase anyway. At first it seems discouraging, like you're gonna have to carry all this weight so you better get used to it. But it's actually more encourage, like, yeah, I am going to carry this weight! I'm going to carry the hell out of it!

Ya know?

Or maybe that's just my always-trying-to-stay-positive outlook coming out.

I wish I could talk about the happy things here too. Because happy things are happening too! I promise (myself) that I will talk about everything else soon. Perhaps after next Wednesday when my classes are finally over.

FUCKING. OVER!

I always get this super excitement towards the end of a semester.

I just have to climb this mountain first.

Best Nights

I just downloaded the blogger app. I think I will use blogger a lot more often this way.

I just wanted to say:

I haven't felt this way in a long time. In a good way! The best of ways! I had so much fun tonight.

:)

Trying To Keep My Head Up

I could write a book about my last few weeks...

But today...

I am so discouraged after today. I don't really know how to put into words how I'm feeling right now. I don't even have the time to write this because I have so much to do...

I have no time, I get no sleep, I have too much work, I actually work really god damn hard, and I have nothing to show for it because my grades are shit. It sucks to put in all the work and receive none of the award.

I'm at a pretty low low right now.