Monday, August 31, 2015

If you're wondering if I want you to

I want you to.

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I just hope that this is all worth it

for you.

Because my willingness to put in the effort is there. It's potential energy right now because I don't know what to do. I've gotten myself out of the hole I put myself in, and now I'm just standing on open ground. Is it worth it to try or is it already over? The only indication I've been given is towards the latter.

I am patient.

But I can only wait for so long.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

"We spend a lot of time chasing people we could have caught by standing still".

Your claim to be willing does show willfulness.
What is "willingness"?

You may be standing on open ground, but asking yourself if it's worth a try will land you up exactly where you're standing; no man's land.

Torn between two great troughs on either side, with lots of men in each - waiting to drag you down.
Maybe if you picked a man up; dragged him out and showed him where you truly were.
It'd be: 'one man's land'.



It's like you know the words
But you can't hear the music
You've lived a lie for so long
Now you believe it
You're shooting silver bullets
And taking magic pills

I'm asking you, do you know a way to delete my conscience?
Don't put your ear to the floor to hear the sound of the future
Yours is a history shaped by disaster
We're coming back for you
You better brace yourself

Am I holding you up
Or you holding me down?


You killed me and threw me away
Am I holding you up
Or you holding me down?

We make the same mistakes
We always count them
I want to fail you so badly.

I'm telling you
We're coming back
To collect that killer
Who killed me and threw me away
Am I holding you up
Or you holding me down?

You killed me and threw me away
Am I holding you up
Or you holding me down?

What if I have to lose?
What if I have to suffer?
So what if I have to lose?
So what if I have to suffer?

You killed me and threw me away
Am I holding you up
Or you holding me down?