And I know it's not going to last.
I've been trying to put extra focus into this relationship. Trying to, maybe, re-ignite the flame or something. It's just hard when it's not reciprocated.
I was talking to him on the phone the other day while he drove home from buying his new car. He was on the way home... as in his mom's house. And, as usual, his mom calls in. He abruptly ends the conversation with me and hangs up to get her call. The woman he is literally driving to. He always hangs up with me and drops everything for her. So when he tried to call me back a whole hour later, I didn't answer. I wasn't in the mood.
He came and saw me for the weekend.
But when he left work, he, as usual, disappeared for hours. I texted him 2 hours after he got off work asking if he was on the way yet. Didn't hear back for another hour or so until he finally said he just left... at 8pm. It's a 2-hour drive. We had dinner plans. They did not happen.
When he arrived at my house at nearly 10 o' clock at night, he told me he had "planned" to leave a lot sooner but was asked by his mom and sister to do a very time-consuming task that he most certainly obliged. Never once thought to inform me, who was waiting up for him. So I finally said some of the things I had bottled up all this time. Told him this is always the case. And how I am always on the backburner and never a priority. He tried to lie and say I am, so I told him I sure don't feel like one.
That's when he tried to say that I was lying and that he comes with this baggage and my options were to accept or break up with him.
He has a VERY high self-worth so must have thought I would choose the former option. I just said "okay" and ended it there. I am 90% into the latter option. I know I'm not going to continue to accept it. Thanks to him being completely unwilling to even consider seeing it from my side, I am ready to call it quits.
And what perfect timing because the fucking boy has reappeared out of nowhere.
