Boozeday Tuesday

I'm feeling really good right about now. Despite having a less than good day. I mean, I stayed up all night writing that paper. I only slept roughly 3 hours. I got to the school at 7 (when it doesn't even open til 8:30) and did homework until 1. My morning class went just fine. Wasn't bad at all. My 1 o'clock class was kind of... no fun. I dunno. We did critiques, but I got put on the spot and couldn't think and kinda froze up and felt stupid.

I went to an artist lecture tonight. It was Mel Chin (I strongly suggest looking him up). He's great! He was an excellent speaker a very funny. If you can make an audience laugh, you can win their approval immediately. He's a cool dude though.

So, Nate just randomly told me "Hey I just wana let you know that you are extremely attractive and even if I wanted to look at other girls they keep reminding me of you and it makes it very hard to concentrate lol. Like you're in my head A LOT. Not that that's a bad thing ;) I'm just saying" If I were in a bad mood and wanted to be a typical girl, I'd over-analyze that and see "oh, so you are looking at other girls. It offends me that you looking at them reminds you of me. But on the other hand, good. I SHOULD come to mind when you're looking at other girls. If only to stop you from thinking about them and think of me instead." and so on. But really I just thought that was kinda cute. And, no, I don't find it suspicious. This time.

But what's adorable is this other guy I'm talking to (he knows I'm not single and doesn't ever really hit on me). We're talking about birthdays and his is coming up as well as mine, and he said he'd invite me to his party but he knows I won't be in town. And I said it would be fun, but I probably wouldn't have a ride. He said "...and I wish you could go to my potential part. I'd totally go to yours. I'll just wish for you to magically appear when I blow my candles out. :D" Haha, that made me smile. If I were single, I'd flirt back. But I don't want to be a "tease" or to lead anyone on.

It is such a mystery why people express such interest in you when you're NOT single. When I was single, everyone was too afraid to pursue me (until Nate took a swing at it ha). I guess they feel if they are rejected (which they will be), it's only because I already have a boyfriend. I guess it eases the pain of rejection in the sense that it's inevitable in this case, so you're hopes were never that far up to begin with this. I'm analyzing... in a good way! But perhaps the more likely thing is a primal instinct. A dominance thing. Males "fighting" for females trying to win them over. I'll quit now...


Morals and values.
What is the most important thing in your life?
Living and pursuing happiness. Others' happiness too. Perhaps more than my own. Who am I kidding, of course more than my own. It's fucked up, I know.

Do you judge people, honestly?
It's a natural instinct. Probably a survival mechanism if you really want to get into it.

Do you strive to fit in, follow the crowd?
In a sense, yes, But also no. I don't try to be "trendy," but I definitely don't try to stick out. I don't want to "fit" in. I just want to "blend" in. I want to become part of the wallpaper.

Do you think you are especially opinionated?
Nate is opinionated. Nikki is opinionated. After spending the last almost year of my life around these two, I realized, I'm not so opinionated (by comparison). I do have opinions. Some of them are very firm opinions. It's hard to tell what I'm like in person when you read what I'm like on this blog. I am certainly more opinionated and open here. In person, I'm much more bland, diluted version of this blog.

How much money makes happiness?
Just enough to where too little of it won't cause unhappiness. (Does that make sense? It makes sense in my head, but I don't know how effectively I worded it).

If you could enforce world rules/laws what would they be?
Government should not control its people, but rather, regulate and maintain order and peace. (again, I dunno if I worded that effectively).

What do you define as cheating?
Lying or giving oneself unfair advantages to win. If you mean in a relationship, that definition can still apply. I wouldn't go so far as to say flirting with someone else is cheating, but anything physically romantic is, in my opinion.

Would you ever adopt?
If I ever have kids, I'd like to have kids of my own, with my own DNA as well as my partner's.

How long after you or your partner giving birth would you go back to work?
I dunno. Whenever I feel well enough to work and my baby can be without me for long periods of time?

What do you think the key to happiness is?
Choosing it!

Define what success means to you?
I've answered this before in other surveys. Success is the point when you've reached complete contentment and satisfactory in life, and you couldn't ask for anything more. (I mean, everyone always wants something more, but I mean big things. You've got all your big accomplishments down).

What is the ingredient to a healthy relationship?
Honesty, communication, acceptance.

Would you rather be rich or famous?
Rich. I don't want the attention, but I could use the money.

How would you want to become rich?
I guess by earning it through hard work. That's really the only satisfactory way to do it.

What would you want to be famous for?
I really don't know.

Would you rather be a model, actress, singer, fashion designer or author?
Out of those choices: author.

Honestly, what matters more to you.. Personality or appearance?
Well, definitely personality is more important. I don't care how good looking you are, if you're difficult to be around, then go fuck yourself (which I'm sure you'd love to).

What is the most you do for charity?
Um... I donated $1 to end world hunger when I ordered from Pizza Hut. Lol. Every time I use my debit card, Visa makes a donation to World Wildlife Fund. Does that count? (It doesn't come out of my own bank account. It comes from Visa).

What traits do you look for in a friend/partner?
A friend and partner can be two different things... Mostly I just like people who are laid back, who don't make big deals out of things, who aren't dramatic or obnoxious. I guess that's what everyone looks for.

Do you have a "type" when it comes to someones looks?
I never thought I did, but I really like dark hair, especially black (naturally, not that fake, damaged dyed shit). If someone have dark hair and light eyes, that's usually pretty appealing to me.

Do you forgive easily?
I think so. I believe it stems from being too nice. Both of which, I wish I could change...

What is the best revenge?
Being happy.

How many sexual partners does it take to consider someone promiscuous?
Um... It depends how far apart they are. Two in one week is kinda gross as it is, but I know people do it all the time. I dunno. With me, I couldn't do that. If I'm going to be sexually active with anyone, I'm gonna have to know them and be romantically involved with them for a pretty long time. You'd actually be amazed. You might even be proud of me.

How many sexual partners have you had?
One.

If you could travel anywhere, where would it be and why?
Italy. I want to see Rome.

You're having a baby with the last person you KISSED, what do you do?
Um... give birth? I'm not being a smartass. I really don't know how else to answer this.

You're a single parent, do you let the other parent see the child, how often?
I'm not going to be a single parent. And if by some chance I am, I will make him see his child. I'm not one for putting people on guilt trips because they make me feel guilty myself, but if baby daddy doesn't want to live up to his responsibility, I'm going to make him feel like shit for it. Of course, none of that will ever happen.

What period/era/time in history interests you the most?
I'd say ancient times. Greek, Roman, Egyptian.

If you could time travel, would you travel to the past or future?
Neither. Fuck that shit.

You're deserted on an island, which 5 items would you take?
Okay, so if I were taking 5 items, doesn't that imply that I'm preparing to be deserted? If I knew I was about to be deserted, why would I go? Being deserted tends to happen unexpectedly. In which case, I'd have whatever the hell was on me at the time. But, anyway... I'd bring another person (sorry for dragging you into this, bro), a shelter, some food, fresh water, and a survival kit. Oh, sorry, I took the question to seriously.

You have 3 wishes? What are they? (no wishing for more wishes)
I wish for more genies, motherfucker!

If you HAD to choose between your friend or your love, who would it be?
Depends which friend. I dunno... I've never been one to choose my significant other over my friends...

You have to cook a starter, main and dessert for a stranger, what are they?
Starter would be... fuck, I don't know, potato chips (even though I didn't cook them). Hamburger steak! (everyone likes my hamburger steak. Stranger better not be vegetarian!). Funnel cake for dessert. Because who doesn't like funnel cake?

What do you do to relax?
Sleep.

If you had to become a teacher, which age group/grade would you teach?
High school. If I wanted elementary, I'd work at a zoo instead. Middle school kids are horrible all being angsty and going through their awkward puberty stages and weird emotional bipolarness.

Money or love?
Love.

What were you labelled at school? Or what clique were you in?
Cliques weren't black and white entities when I was in school. I was in the gray area.

What do people label you now?
Campbell's. Hellifino.

If you wrote a story or movie what would it be about?
I really don't know and I'm way too tired to make something up. Probably something awesome.

Do you prefer TV, movies or books?
Movies. Though, I've really been trying to get back into reading. Fuck TV.

What topics interest you the most?
Oman. Just go to my tumbler and read my "Interests" list on my About Me page.

What would be the perfect first date?
One where you really got to know the person and got some real insight on them and had fun the entire time.

If you could have any superpower what would it be?
TIME CONTROL