And if I kept all of my promises to you...

...would it be possible for you to do the same?

This one is a little late today because I actually just got done hanging out with people, which is almost always a nice time.

Well, today Nikki and I went on an adventure. We walked to a record store up the street. I bought a Beatles Interview CD for like 5 bucks. I'm going to give it to my dad. Figure it's something interesting and new for him to listen to. (Not "new" cuz I'm sure he heard them when they happened, but it's something different). We spent a little too much time in the record store.

Then we walked to Kroger and did the second half of our grocery shopping. But by the time we were done, it was dark outside. We didn't want to walk home in the dark a mile+ away carrying groceries. That's dangerous! So, we called up Eric, and he came and got us cuz he's a good friend and an awesome guy. Then we cooked dinner and Dillon came over and Eric came over. And we ate food and watched tv (Mostly To Catch a Predator lol) and had a gay old merry time. It was nice.

Oh, we didn't watch the superbowl. For some reason, I have never liked the Giants, so I was a little disappointed.

Here's the next part:

Your beliefs on:
God?
I do not believe in a God or the possibility of one. I don't want to sound like one of those arrogant atheists who are just as closed-minded as Christians, but I firmly do not believe and cannot fathom even the possibility of something so illogical as a higher being.

Angels?
Of course not.

Demons?
Obviously not...

Heaven and hell?
Absolutely not.

Aliens?
I believe we can't be the only living beings in this entire universe. Whether they have visited our planet or not, I have no opinion one way or the other.

Ghosts?
I don't believe in ghosts, and this is a recent thing I've crossed off my list. There's just nothing logical about the existence of ghosts.

Witches/Witchcraft?
Well... yes, I believe these exists, but I don't believe in magic. Wicca is a thing, and followers of such a religion are termed "witches."

Magic?
Silly.

The devil?
Not at all.

Vampires?
I'm not a toddler anymore.

Miracles?
Maybe happy coincidences.

Luck?
I like to use the term "lucky" and such, but I think everything happens at random.

Karma?
I'd like to believe in karma. It's a nice concept. And I do say things happen because of karma, but, again, deep down, I don't believe in it being an actual thing.

Destiny/Fate?
I believe everything happens at random. There is no reason for anything.

Time travel?
Nope.

Love?
This whole survey has made me seem like such a cynic. I'm mostly a skeptic and question everything. I've questioned the existence of real, actual "love" a lot. I believe it exists, but it's very rare.

Psychics?
Full of shit.

Creation?
Load of shit.

Evolution?
Yes, definitely.

Your beliefs on the apocalypse, when and how?
If we don't wipe ourselves out with nuclear warfare/radiation or overpopulation/diminished resources, etc, then the sun will die, as all stars do, millions, perhaps billions, of years from now and end this solar system.

What do you believe happens when we die?
Absolutely nothing. Once your heart stops beating, that's it.

Are you religious or spiritual?
Neither.

If so, what religion do you follow?
Science. "The devil's tool"

If you were to marry, would you include your religion?
I've thought about that, actually. I think eventually I'd like to marry someone with similar beliefs as myself. Mostly so our kids won't be raised with conflicting beliefs (I don't want to push any beliefs on my kids. If they grow up and decide they want to be devout, hardcore, bible-thumping Christians, then that'll be their own choice). This means that I know I'm not going to end up marrying Nate ever. Unless by some chance he becomes a non-believer. Then I'd feel unbelievably (no pun intended lol) guilty.


So, I took a "color genetics" test earlier. It's funny how I just got finished saying I don't believe in pretty much anything, then here I am doing silly online psychology tests. But psychology is a science, and I believe in science. So, that said, these results are scarily accurate.

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.

You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

Now, I don't know if this is just so generic that anyone can find some situation in their current life to relate to it or what, but the part that I put in bold definitely hits pretty hard. And with the content of this blog as evidence, it's quite obvious what that part is about. The last part isn't so true. Mostly because I've already resolved all that. I told myself a long time ago that my problems are caused by me and me alone. I've already figured out that it's easier to smile than to be miserable all the time. Though, I do still get miserable. I just don't stay stay that way for unbearable amounts of time...