So, here I am

Is it worth it; can you even hear me? Standing with your spotlight on me. Not enough to feed the hungry. I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now. In this sea of lonely. The taste of ink is getting old. It's four o' clock in the fucking morning. Each day gets more and more like the last day. Still I can see it coming. While I'm standing in the river drowning. This could be my chance to break out. This could be my chance to say goodbye. At last it's finally over. Couldn't take this town much longer. Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be. Now I'm ready to be free

Every time I think of the new year, I think of this song. I keep singing the part in bold. Not that a new year is going to make much of a difference, but this year has so much in store for it.

People usually come into the New Year thinking it's going to be a great year. So much better than the last! I always think this anyway. But every year is pretty much about the same. "Pretty good. Not bad. I can't complain. 'Cause actually everything is just about the same." You've got your good and you've got your bad, and they usually balance each other out for those who try to make the best of it. If you let the bad take a hold of you, well, who's to blame other than yourself?

Sometimes I get sick of myself because I try to be so damn positive, but it really helps. I only get down in the dumps sometimes, and it usually doesn't last too long. And the reason that usually happens is because, like a typical girl, I over-analyze everything. And sometimes other people yell at me, and I don't like being yelled at...

This year I am going to turn 18. I am going to be driving (finally inorite?). I am going to graduate from high school. I am going to have, hopefully, a fantastic summer because I'll be able to drive anywhere I want. And I am going to start college.

I started off the year in a relationship, but that's a story for another day. (I always save it for another day, but I never talk about it anyway).

Of course, there will be many, many things in between.

It's going to be a big year. And here's to it being a good one!