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Lately I've been feeling pretty low I guess you could say. But today has been a little better. No school tomorrow which gives me another day to procrastinate. But also puts my Christmas break a day behind. I only have one more day to go through. I want to hurry up and get it over with!

Your True Self...
Do you believe that all your accomplishments are finished?
Not at all.

or are you just starting?
Most definitely.

Do you believe your really loved out in this world?
Yes by a select few.

or do you believe that YOU love but aren't loved back?
I probably love more people than love me.

Are you alone ?
Literally, yes. But not necessarily.

Feelings of discomfort?
Well, my back is killing me. Does that count?

Do you feel as if you can't tell anyone your problems?
I can tell some people some of my problems...

Are you judged?
Of course. Everybody is judged by everybody.

Is there something on your mind that won't go away?
Several things.

Have you seen a therapist? Did it work?
I've seen a psychologist. Apparently it helped?

Are you in love?
Not necessarily.

Are you insecure about your appearance?
Sometimes.

Are appearances everything to you?
No.

Do you judge?
Everyone does.

Have you felt like your parents are letting you down?
Isn't that what they're supposed to do? And, in return, I let them down.
I love my parents though.

Are you afraid to tell your parents how you feel?
On some things.

Are you open with your parents?
Not really. I can tell my dad the things that I'm too terrified to tell my mom about though.

About your Friends...
Do they trust you?
I guess so.

Do you trust them?
To an extent... as much as I can.

Has any of them told your secrets ?
When I was little... haha.

Did you forgive them?
I don't know. I guess so.

Does it hurt to see them with someone you don't like?
So far, that hasn't happened.

Have they dated your ex's?
Nope. I don't even know if most of them know any of my exes.

Did it hurt?
I guess I wouldn't really mind...

Are you in a clique?
I don't think so.

What do people classify you in at school?
Cliques aren't all that defined at my school.

Are your friends mean to others?
No. I don't make friends with those kinds of people.

Are your friendships on and off?
For the most part, no.

Do you have a lot of drama?
Not lately, no.

Do you want the drama to stop?
I don't have any drama to worry about right now.

Is there that one person that brings drama in your life?
No.

Have you ever stuck up for yourself even though it might cost you a friend?
I don't know. Maybe.

Regret not telling a friend something 'cuz you knew it was going to hurt?
Idts.

Have you ever lost a friend?
On occasion.

How did you take it?
I still miss them sometimes.

Do you have good memories with all your friends?
Most of them.

About your Love Life...
Are you single, in a relationship, or is it complicated?
It's complicated. I always thought that was a dumb thing to say, but right now it's kind of appropriate. We talked about it today, and we've decided to stay together until he has to leave. But he's coming back in the summer, and we're going to get back together then... that's the plan, I guess.

Do you feel trapped in your relationship?
No.

Does it hurt you to see him/her with someone else?
No... ?

Can you live without this person?
Well, I'm going to have to for the next few months.

How has this person impacted your life?
He makes me pretty happy. :)

Have you impacted theirs?
I don't know. Maybe I make him happy too.

Do they tell you they love you?
No. We're not naive little middle school kids.

Do you tell them you love them?
Refer to above.

Do they mean it?
...

Do you mean it?
...

Is this relationship a crush or is it the real deal?
I don't know. It's different than past relationships I've had. I feel like if he didn't have to go away that it would have worked out pretty well.

Do they break promises?
We don't make promises to break.

Did you ever break a promise?
Refer to above.

Did they ever break off a date?
No.

Did they cheat?
No.

Did you cheat?
No.

Have you heard rumors about them that you didn't like?
Um. I don't know if this counts as a rumor, but when Nick told me what happened a week or so ago, I didn't like it. But there was nothing I could do about it. It was his own choices that got him into the mess, and now it has affected, not only both of us, but everyone in his life.

Have you considered leaving them for anyone else?
No. There's no one else I'm interested in.

Afraid to tell them how you feel because they might leave forever?
No.

Are they in your school?
No, which is kind of nice since other people aren't in the way, but it's kind of annoying because we have trouble seeing each other. Next week though! :)

If you guys broke up, would it be hard to see them again?
I don't think so. We're breaking up on good terms.

What's your biggest fear with the person you love/like?
That he'll make some rather substantially bad choices when he moves.

Have you ever told someone you liked them but they didn't feel the same?
No. I don't tell people I like them. Well... that one time that he told me first, I indirectly returned the feeling.

Are you afraid of rejection?
Isn't everyone? It's a sensitive world we live in.

I'm going to go bake cookies now.