I've felt weird all day. Like in a daze.
I am alone for the weekend. And I'm trying not to get sad.
I emailed David last night to respond to his last ditch effort to work things out. I told him the timing is wrong. Not right now.
I've been thinking about it all day.
I've been in my feels.
I had a dream last night that I was living in a house with someone. I kept discovering new rooms and that the house was much bigger than I thought. There was a weird graphic moment where I slept with a person I found living in the house... It was someone whom I haven't seen since college. Idk if any of that is relevant to how I've been feeling...
I want to go out and be social. I want to go out and drink! But I don't know who I would do that with. I have no friends and it always brings me down. I no longer know what to do with myself when I'm alone. Sometimes I drink at home. But then what? Just sleep? I suppose.
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