Bad people get what they want

I feel like bad people get what they want.  Doesn't it seem that way? On a large scale, look at politicians... On a smaller scale, look at people you know.

I'm not happy with my personality and I feel like I stray more and more from kindness and sy/empathy everyday.

I've been angry lately. I've been lashing out. I've been having bouts of rage. Maybe it's the stress...

I've had a bad day. And for some reason, I was reminded that in the past, when I had had a bad day, the bad people in my life would deliver. Aaron would bring me candy and bring tennis balls for Bear. Jonah would buy me alcohol and we'd get drunk together or get dinner and a movie...

It seems the people who cared the least actually did the most. And I think this has given me a fucked up view on relationships and out of whack expectations.

I am so easily disappointed, but I also excuse so much behavior.

I'm really just having a bad time right now.