All signs pointed to yes

Well, I asked her while she cried what she was doing with her life...

All my worst fears have come true. I'm gaining a ton of life experience lately.

I don't want to be alone right now. And I don't want to be a nuisance to the one person I have in this situation, so I'm just going to write. I've been fighting eyelids for the last few hours but I'm way too god damned anxious to sleep, so I took sleeping pills for the first time in a long time. I sleep really well when it's next to Jonah. And that's not some dumb romantic bullshit; it's just true. I think it's because it's comfortable and warm and for some reason my mind doesn't wander quite as much when I'm next to him. But when I'm alone, it's the biggest struggle to fall asleep. And after today... and this last week entirely... I need to be sedated.

If love is all you have, well then, baby, that's not bad. If love is all you've got, then that's a hell of a lot.

And since I'm not finished talking about him:



Single or Taken?
Taken

If Taken, by whom?
Allen Jonah Smith (none of these are his real names haha)

How long have you been going out?
Two months.

How long did you date before going out?
Two weeks.

Who's Older?
He is, as usual. He's 24.

Who asked who out?
He asked me.

Do you think you'll still be together in 2 wks?
Absolutely.

How about a month from now?
Surely.

What about in a year?
I hope so.

What's your favorite thing to do with him/her?
Just about anything. Thanks to him, I've gone on some interesting ventures.

Do they still give you butterflies?
I do!

Would you ever live with him/her?
That is TBD. I already basically live with him about 5 days a week. When I get a job, most likely in Franklin, he is totally prepared to move to Franklin... He's a bit less cautious than I am.

Do you have any inside jokes?
Jack and boobies.

Is there anything he/she does that bugs you?
He doesn't bug me. We're still in the honeymoon phase a.k.a. they-can-do-no-wrong phase. But I'm not entirely blind. There are some things he does that concern me.

Do you ever daydream about him/her?
Probs.

Do they ever randomly stop by to see you?
That's not really feasible when we live 45 min apart.

Who texts who more?
We text about the same.

Do you have a lot of things in common?
Some.

If so, name some.
Sense of humor.

Halfway through this survey, the pills hit HARD. I'll finish this later.
EDIT: okay, I finished it.

How are you guys different?
In more ways than we're the same, I'm sure.

Do you expect too much from him/her?
Not yet.

What was the last thing you did together? (with other people)
We hung out with his friend Tom if that counts.

What was the last thing you did together? (just the two of you)
I basically live with him by now, so we do almost everything together.

Have you guys gone out for breakfast together?
No, because I don't eat breakfast...

How about lunch or dinner?
Plenty of times!

Have you gone to the movies together?
Yeah. We saw The Martian on our second date. Feels like it was a long time ago, but it was just a couple months ago.

How about bowling?
Ice skating?
Or maybe roller skating?
We've done none of the above together.

have you gone to a party together?
Yeah, the one where I got white girl wasted.

Have you slept in the same bed?
We always sleep in the same bed.

Do you have any of their clothes?
I don't. I wear his sweatpants when I'm at his place though because they are way warmer than any of my lounging clothes.

Whats your favorite thing about him/her?
My favorite thing about him is that he treats me with respect AND shows me lots of affection. It's nice for a change!

Have you caught yourself smiling randomly cuz you were thinking of them?
Well, of course.

Have you showered together yet?
Nah. I wouldn't be opposed to it, but it's not something I'm, like, super into or anything.

Did you do anything together for valentines day?
Not yet.

Tell us about a dream you've had about him/her?
I had a dream in the beginning that he flipped a switch. Like he was all about me for one second and then he was pushing me away the next second. In the dream, I asked him if he was schizophrenic, and he said "yes" seriously and then started laughing menacingly.

Lets get a bit kinky. Yes or no...
Whips?
Chains?
Handcuffs?
Blindfold?
Biting?
Candle Wax?
hair pulled?
Choked?
Being held down?

I'm not answering any of these because it doesn't need to be disclosed.Although, I've had plenty of new experiences with Jonah, pretty much "no" to all of the above.

Etc...
Do they have kids?
Just the one growing inside of me. THERE I SAID IT. (which is what all this turmoil has been about lately, but, don't worry, I'm handling it; and I'm taking care of it).

Do you like his/her ex?
Don't know any of them. Don't care.

Who usually cooks? you or them?
We usually go out, but he has cooked for me a couple times.

Who's messier?
I'd say we're even.

Whos place to you guys prefer to be at?
Considering I live with my mom right now, his.

who has a bigger TV
Who has a bigger bed?
Are you thinking dirty now?
Nah.

How much do you miss them now that you've done this survey?
I miss him every time I'm away.

Are you gonna see them today?
I'm finishing this survey at 11:40pm on Sunday the 6th. I saw him this morning when he brought me home. Probably won't see him tomorrow, but I'll definitely see him this week when we go to the clinic.

Almost done. Do you like....
To hold hands?
Yeah! I used to hate PDA, but I don't mind it with him for some reason.

To Cuddle?
Duh.

Hug or Kiss?
All the time.

Watch a movie in the theater or at home?
Either.

Getting kissed on the neck?
Sure, why not.

Getting kissed on the stomach?
Sure, why not.

Last few questions then I'm done I swear.
If your Ex wanted you back right now what would you do?
Absolutely never.

If you could do anything with them or to them RIGHT NOW what would it be?
Just sit on the couch and binge Game of Thrones like we've been doing. I've got no energy for anything else.

Do you think they'll stay faithful to you?
It seems likely as of now.

How'd you guys first meet each other?
Well, we had talked online and through texting for about 4 months. Then we finally met at Live on the Green (a very public and crowded event). I was unsure of how I felt about him for the entire 4 months. I thought he was cool to talk to, but when I met him in person, I thought he was really cute. We talked more, and a couple months later (in October) he asked me out on a date. Like a real DATE. Then after the second date, he asked me to be his girlfriend. I panicked and told him I didn't know. After the 4th or 5th date, I was totally into him and finally agreed to be with him officially. I've been all about him ever since.

Is he an ass guy or a tit guy?
I think ass.

Would you change anything about them if you could?
The drugs...

How much do you miss them now that the survey is over?
I always miss him.