I have too much unnecessary anxiety. I had plans to hangout with different friends both yesterday and today. Yesterday I canceled just because... I just didn't feel like putting on a face. It's not depression... it's just exhausting. I chose to hang out at my dad's house instead with him and my brothers. And the dogs! I did a lot of driving yesterday and then I did a lot of physical work taking care of the dogs and cleaning their kennel. I'm sore today.
Last night I got really sick. I don't know why, but I felt nauseated beyond belief. I eventually managed to fall asleep (before midnight for once), but I woke up a lot throughout the night. I don't think it would have been worth mentioning except I still feel like shit today. Mecha and I usually get sushi on Mondays, but I canceled today because of how shitty I feel.
On an unrelated note, I hate when people think I don't have a life outside of them. I got a FB invite to a Halloween party that I wasn't planning on attending. Then I got a message: "Are you coming to the party?" First of all, it's over a month from now. The best response would be "Fuck if I know." But I was nice and said, "I don't know yet." What pissed me off was the response I got: "What else would you be doing?"
It may seem like a harmless question, but because of WHO is saying it, it's infuriating. I wasn't going to go anyway because I don't want to see any of the people who I know will be there, but that reply ensured a definite no.
What else would I be doing? Anything I do that night will be far better.
Even if I do absolutely nothing.
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