Fools

I just don't get it. I mean, sometimes I feel like I get it, but, overall, I don't get.

Jack messaged me this morning asking if I felt any better. I said I felt worse. He came over and brought me medicine and later made me pancakes. And he was very touch-y tonight. Any time he would walk by me, he'd put his hand on my head or leg or just touch me somehow, but not inappropriately. Marcia even came over for a minute to borrow a video game from my roommate and leave. They didn't even talk to each other, which I'm sure was just a charade, but it didn't upset me. He hung out with me alone for awhile at the end of the night. He hugged me before he left, which is something he never does.

I'm thinking this cold I have won't get too bad. It's manageable right now.

I gave Steve Buscemi the Chameleon his first round of meds today. I also gave him a shower! I have never seen a lizard so happy! It warmed my heart. Giving a chameleon a shower is just turning the hot water on, and putting the chameleon near the stream, not directly under it. That way he gets all the humidity and warm moisture. It cleared his eyes up. He still hasn't been able to eat though. :/ He has really warmed up to me lately being sick and all. Maybe he can sense I am taking care of him. I'm so attached to the little guy.

Hanging out with Michael this weekend didn't work out thanks to me being sick. I've developed a cough now that has gotten progressively worse throughout the day. Hey, maybe tomorrow, I'll wake feeling a little better, and I'll get progressively better throughout the day! Eh? EH?

So anyway, I can't end this post being mad at Jack because he was so nice to me... But it's still fucked up what he has been doing lately. I mean, not necessarily the trying to see Marcia, but bringing her around me. Bringing her to my house and trying to get us to hang out together? No. It's also a little fucked up what she is doing because I know she knows about Jack and I. But I'm not going to sit here and beat myself up about it tonight, mostly because the medicine I took to help me sleep is really kicking in now.

"Sometimes you gotta play the roll of a fool to fool the fool who thinks they're fooling you."