Just Another One

Things make more sense every day.

Max came over today for a minute. He left his phone, so of course I went through it. Here's a conversation from LAST night:
Max said he was looking to score (some weed)
Dude messaged last night "I'm mostly free this evening"
Max responded "I am hanging with my girl but if i can sneak away I can hit u up."
And when I decided I wanted to go home, he messaged dude back, "Hell yeah it looks like tonight is going to work out"

I was over at his place last night. He was very supportive of me wanting to go home, and now I know why.

See, when I broke up with him. He said he was going to change for the better to win me back. Or something like that. I like him less and less every time I'm around him... He just stresses me out. And I have been looking out to see if he is being better. He's not. Is anyone surprised...?

I am getting attached to Jack. Only a little. It just seems like he already has gotten attached or is starting to get attached to me. I'm still staying skeptical. Obviously commitment terrifies me right now and I won't be ready for anything like that for months, but I feel like I really am the only girl he's seeing. I have all these opportunities to be with other guys, but I don't. I want to see where this thing with Jack and I are going. And if it turns out I'm "just another one" then I can do the same to him. I would be okay with that because that's what I've prepared myself for since the beginning.

Nate knows about Jack and I's situation. It's funny that he is the only one who knows. I feel like because of that, Nate has this different view of me. Like I'm easy or something. He keeps trying to hook up with me despite having a girlfriend. Also, this has opened my eyes to how he is. I BET he acted like this to other girls when he was in a relationship with me. I'm not mad or bitter about it though. I'm very much over that stage of my life. It's just interesting to learn more about people you thought you already knew...

I still have more to talk about it, but I have way too much work to do...