I should have known

I don't want this to affect me as much as it is.

I went to see Bill play tonight at a coffee shop. I was with Max. Matt and Jack showed up because I told them about it. I honestly didn't expect them to show up. They only stayed for one song and left. I sent Jack a message on Facebook saying thanks for stopping in. He said they "would have stayed but... [max]." I told him I should have said something and he responded, "I should have known." And now he's ignoring me.

So, I'm just going to say this. Jack and I are not dating, we're not a couple, and we're not together. We don't do anything remotely like that and we don't even hang out for the sake of hanging out unless he is at my house waiting for my roommates to come home. The only thing we do together is have sex, and, in my mind, that is all I am good for to him. I won't invest in a person like that.

He doesn't understand, and I don't know if it would be worth it for him to anyway. I could be so much worse.

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I think several other people I talk to are also getting tired of me. I'm only here for another year. Maybe in that time I can make everyone hate me and then move out of state. I think the only way this "having it all" thing can end is with that aforementioned "all" hating me.