I don't do codenames anymore, but haven't decided whether to name this new guy just yet... i hung out with after work a couple days ago. We had planned it as a both knew that this was gonna be the one. We met for drinks first. I only had one, but he had a couple strong ones. I think he was nervous, and it blows my mind that this guy comes off as shy or something. Hot people are usually confident, aren't they? (I am not going to get over how hot he is any time soon). So then we went back to his place for a movie. He had presented the options to me of either movie at his or a walk through the park. I was ready to get all the built-up tension out of the way because I HATE awkwardness. That's why I kissed him on the first "date." So, I chose movie, and we both knew what that was going to lead to.
My suspicions of him living with a parent were wrong (my google-stalking was actually inaccurate). He lives in a house with a couple roommates. Dudes his age, I'm guessing, but I didn't meet them. He lives like a bachelor - mattress on the floor and very bare space - idk how I feel about that yet.
We cuddled on his bed through the duration of the movie, and when it was over, we did have sex. Any lurkers don't need the details.
The drive home for me was like many I've done before. Late night in empty streets with tangled hair and smeared makeup. What a sight, I'm sure. But it put something into perspective for me. This is the first new person I've been with in 2 years. And I am pretty fond of him and do see potential; however, completely unrelated to him, I am tired of those late night drives home. I'm tired of starting over every year or so. The arrangement I had with Lane was ideal except he was the wrong person to fill that role because he couldn't. But that was a bit of a tangent; we're not getting into introspeculation tonight.
So the next day, spontaneously, I had the boy at my house. He still seems nervous and I'm trying to break him out of it. We took an evening stroll around the cemetery
It was nice, but I was just a little drunk. Surely he was too. And, of course because we were 2 adults alone in my quiet house, we had sex again but I'm my bed this time. :)
So, the physical part of things are going well. I guess he likes me non-physically, too, maybe. But we will cross that bridge if we get there. I haven't crossed the emotional threshold yet where I'd be sad if he left or ghosted. I mean, I am fond of him. I think he has a super cute personality so far. But I'm being slow on that end. I've still got a little more hurt to get over and don't plan to be vulnerable just yet.
The other things in my life will be discussed in a future post.
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