Woe

I like having secrets, but I'm also tired of hiding things.

What am I doing?

I kissed Cage tonight. I don't know why. I'm not interested in him romantically, but he asked, and I thought, "What the hell?" I'm not going to think about it. I'm a giver and people pleaser, I guess.

I'm feeling extremely detached and more distant than ever. I want no more human contact, especially physical, from anyone. I need to be completely alone for awhile, but I don't know how to tell people that. This weekend with Max is mostly to blame for that. I'm going to have to cut ties with him completely if he doesn't respect boundaries. This is getting hard. He is hurting. I am numb. Things can't stay this way much longer.