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I really need to get this all down before I leave. I'm heading to my dad's for a few days.

I went to my high school's graduation and had a gay old time. I went with Logan. He wasn't planning on going, but I guess he decided to go because I said I had no one to go with. Dann managed to find me there. I haven't seen him in about 3 years, so it was weird that he recognized me from behind. I was standing up at the bleachers, and I heard someone behind me call my name, and it was him. He looked the same, except with a shaved head. He acted exactly how I expect him to: very inappropriately. Nate told me that day that he was getting off work early to go to graduation so I may see him there. I joked with Dann that if Nate showed up, I was going to sit in Dann's lap and pretend I was there with him. Dann, of course, had no problem with this and would have done it regardless of Nate's presence lol.

Oh, while the ceremony was going on, there was a fight between two girls right behind us. The cops broke it up, and they had to call an ambulance for one girl who was knocked out on the ground. Trash is what they are. How can people not act fucking civilized?

In the end, Nate never showed up because he couldn't get off work. That was a relief.

As soon as the ceremony was over, I tried to find my newly-graduated friends in the crowd. It was hard... I found John though! He was the main one I was looking for anyway. I congratulated him on beating the final boss. I tried to find Josh but never did. I saw Spencer, a friend who I graduated with. I feel bad because I didn't find CJ either, and I could have said hey to him and the rest of his family since I know them and all.

Afterwards, Logan, Dann, and I went to Sonic for some food. It was fun. Nate called Logan because he was off work, and I told Logan not to say he was with me. But he did tell Nate he was at Sonic, and I was like, "noooo what if he comes here?" But Nate was at BK with Spencer, so it's all good. Logan and I told Nate that we didn't hang out (because I guess Logan owes a loyalty to both of us and we figured it would just make Nate upset that Logan was hanging out with me and Nate wasn't).

I've been hanging out with Fonz a lot. We drove an hour just to eat at Fazoli's one night. It was the first time I had Fazoli's. I wish we had one in town cuz their food is pretty good.

I really don't remember what I was going to say here.

Mom is in Europe for the next 10 days. She's going to London and Italy and I don't even know where. I have a list of all the hotels she'll be in on which dates.

So, I'm about to go to my dad's house for the next few days.

I hung out with Michael the other day. We saw Men in Black 3 and it was actually pretty good. We played pool afterwards. We made a bet beforehand that if he won, he got a kiss. I was supposed to come up with something for me to get if I won, but I kinda sorta expected to lose, and he kinda sorta expected to win anyway. But I won! By pure luck, I won (I suck at pool; I really do). So, we sat in his car and talked for like 2+ hours. That was cool. Then we kissed anyway. It was weird cuz I've never kissed anyone except Nate, so I was being shy. But he knew that beforehand, so it's all good. Haha. I feel like I'm getting in too deep, but he knows where we stand. I told him I don't want a relationship right now and that I don't want to be thrown into another long-distance relationship, so there would be no point to even try since we're both going to go back to school in the fall. Different schools, of course. Far away from each other. So, I guess we're just having fun right now. I am anyway. If he gets his heart broken in the end, I can be partly to blame, but he knows what he's getting himself into. I've told him everything.

So... about that. I've come to realize that the playing field is now even, and it's at the point where I can get what I want. Naturally, I want it all, so I can't handle this. I'm not sure what I'm doing or where I'm going with this, but right now I'm deciding just to have fun and do what I want. I never thought I'd be this way, and I know I'm being kinda vague (<--I've always been THAT way), but I'm ready for it. I think.

I hung out with Fonz yesterday. We went to a little spring carnival that was happening in town. The carnival itself was a bit underwhelming, but I got a funnel cake and that made it all worth it. I found my wallet (it's been missing for well over 3 weeks). So we went to Walmart, and I bought $10-worth of candy. Sweet. Then we went to the movies and saw Dark Shadows. It wasn't too bad. Then we got Little Caesar's, which is pretty damn good for a damn good price. Then we hung out on the couch and internetted until we both went to sleep.

Okay, so now here I am. And I have to hurry up and get stuff packed to go to daddeh's. (no time for spellcheck. not sorry)