Bored of You

I know I always talk about the same thing now, but I just gotta vent. So, you ignore me all day, then you send me a text late at night asking if any of your texts went through. I say no, and you respond, "Wow hahaha my phone has been acting weird lately." -.- Yet, oh so conveniently, all of your texts are happening to go through just fine now.

I'm not dumb, and I really hate when people take me for it. It's insulting.

I don't know for sure that he's lying. But if he is, I don't get it. Why lie to me? Just admit that you were ignoring me. I'd accept that and be less annoyed with it than stupid excuses. Yesterday he asked me, "Do you miss me at all?" I think he's catching on. If I break up with him, he really should have seen it coming.

My main concern is that I don't think I'll ever find anyone who treats me as well as he does... when we're together. He knows how to treat a lady, and it has always blown my mind how great he is. I never thought it would be possible for someone to treat me the way he did, and frankly, I never knew how to take it. It was almost too good to be true, but it was genuine.

But, he's obviously very negligent when we're apart, and not only that, but 365 miles apart. Plus, I just don't feel the same toward him anymore. He's lucky though; I liked him a hell of lot for much longer than I've liked anyone else. We've lasted longer than I would have expected. I've never had a serious relationship before, so I've obviously never had to break one off before. It's going to take some time and courage, and I don't know how much. I almost wish he would cheat on me or something just to make this easier. I really don't want to break his heart. He doesn't deserve that...

This song is becoming my soundtrack all too often in my life.