I don't feel good about these changes.

I have been so on edge and just angry a lot lately. 

Lane is moving back in.  I would be more excited if it didn't already feel like it's going to be all the same as last time. I'm letting him move in though. We will see. 

I was doing laundry (really I'm just constantly cleaning because despite him living here again and my mom living here half the week, no one helps keep things clean around here—another source of my stress). I found in the pocket of his jacket a letter that his sister wrote him. He told me about it. She is in a facility right now.  Anyway, part of the letter mentioned something about him moving to Arizona in the coming year. I've heard nothing of this. So this could be exactly like last time. 🙄

I don't think it will be quite as devastating if it happens again. But if it does, it will be for good.