Life

Life is going.

Things are happening. Lots of things.

There's something strange going on with my health/body. It's abnormal and concerning enough that I went to the doctor for it... I haven't told anyone, except the doctor, the exact details. I'm waiting on test results, and I'm scared.

I officially "broke up" with Aaron. It was civil. He wasn't a terrible person... Just not the one for me. Also fairly positive he is a psychopath. Just not a malicious or evil one like Jonah.

Now I'm with newboi guilt-free. It's not ideal; but it's better. He's a very nice boy... For now. He's a bit immature, but he's not a piece of shit. He treats me well... For now. He holds me and touches me (non-sexually) very... Tenderly? It's loving. It's something I haven't felt in a long time. Honestly, it terrifies me. It makes my heart rate spike. It brings back bad memories.

I don't think I like it.

And I know that's my problem.