I'm actually homeless right now. I'm telling people that I'm fine and staying somewhere. I'm not completely living out of my car yet. All of my belongings are in my car, but I've been couch crashing. Jonah and I are working on a project that will un-homeless us. It just requires money we don't have and a whole lot of time. When I said 2016 would be the year of the struggle, I really didn't know it would get this bad.
The worst part is Jonah is mad at me today. I told him if I absolutely needed to, I could stay with Nikki. I understand why he got mad. That would be abandoning him and leaving him to drive an hour to work to MY hometown. I wasn't planning on actually doing that. It's just an option. We have to consider everything. I am planning on sticking with him and seeing this through. I wouldn't have dropped so much money I didn't have if I didn't believe in it. I'm trying to work with him and help all that I am able. But when he dropped me off to go back to work after a silent car ride, I told him, "I'm not going to leave or abandon you." All he said was "Sure." So yet another day of feeling like shit, only today the only person I really have on my side is mad at me because he thinks I'm going to ditch him.
If I lose him, I don't know what I'm going to do.
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