Something I was thinking about last night

I've met yet another guy who thinks "no" means "convince me." He more than asked, he tried. Not forcefully, mind you. Just trying to be "smooth." I held my ground. Sometimes I'm worried I won't. Sometimes I cave just so they'll quit pestering me. I know that only rewards the behavior, and I am part of the problem.

I've always felt Jack didn't completely respect women, but god damn if he doesn't understand the meaning of a no. Jack is the only person I've never had to fight off. The only person I've never had to repeatedly say no to. The only person who respected my wishes the first time without question. When you're met with a no, you don't respond with "why." "No." is a full sentence and doesn't require an explanation. I'd like to thank Jack for that, but I wouldn't want to explain why he deserves the thanks.

Jack was almost willing to drive all the way up here to pick me up and take me back to Murfreesboro tonight. Almost. I told him how long the drive was, and he said it was too far. For the record, he drives a classic car that gets 9 miles to the gallon, so it would be an expensive trip.

I wasn't going to go there just to hang out with him. That would be part of it, yes, but I need to get some things from my house, and there are things that need to be done there.

I feel like this post requires me to talk about this new guy. He's fine in every other regard. In fact, we vibe extremely well. Like that last time I vibed this well with anybody right off the bat was when I first started dating Max. I'm not dating this guy, but I've been extremely comfortable around him since the second we met, and I think it's a wavelength. Do I like him? Yeah. He's absolutely my exact type as a matter of fact. But I've already seen some red flags as indicated from the first part of this post, and I feel a sense of physical incompatibility. Maybe my heart's just not into it. Maybe I'm just not ready for something like that. That's not a maybe, that's a definitely. I'll assign him a codename on this blog later, but that's all you need to know for now.

This new guy wanted me to stay with him in Murfreesboro tonight, too. He was more than willing to make the drive. But I just... I can't, dude.