Little Update

I don't know how to write these things anymore because I never know where to start. I just got caught up on my online History homework and I feel relieved.

Today was Father's Day. I gave my dad a puppy! Surprisingly, he loved her! I got the puppy because a couple days ago, Cage (as I'll dub my former-roommate) found her at my house. Logan and I found out where she came from (a few houses up), and those people gave her to us. I, on a whim, texted my dad asking if he wanted a puppy, and he was for it! So, today I came home to see him. I got to see Josh too! He and Ashley aren't together anymore. From what I hear, she's back on pills. I hope if this is the way things are going to be that their breakup this time is for good. Josh has lost a lot of weight. He wasn't fat before, but he's pretty skinny now. I saw Ryan and Mike too. So it was a pretty good night. Dad was drunk but really likes his new puppy. He even made her sleep in the bed with him. It's adorable.

I don't want to start talking about Max because I'm really tired and don't feel like ranting about the same shit. I'm trying to figure out - fully - why I stay. I know it's because I feel an obligation to stay. I feel responsible for a lot of things. I don't want to leave him alone in Murfreesboro if I'm all he really has. But it's hard to stay when he unintentionally pushes me away. And, you know, I irresponsibly got myself dependent on him. I feel like if I didn't have him around, my life would be a lot harder, and I don't know if I'd be any happier. I would be stressed but probably not to the extent that I am now and I'd be sad in a much different way. I just hope when it does happen, he takes it well. I mean, it's one of those things that he'll have had to see coming for awhile. He better be well prepared.