And where my attention went, my emotions followed

Such a long day.

So much to talk about.

I'm settled into my new house with Logan, Lee, and Matt as my roommates. Last night Matt and I hung out and talked music. His friend Nick hung out for awhile. As it turns out, Nick and I share very similar views politically, which is the opposite of Matt's views. So it was nice knowing I'm not alone here in that sense.

Logan and I got a pet baby pig a couple weeks ago. Matt fell in love with her, but Lee said we're absolutely not keeping her. She's super cute and all, and I liked her for, like, the first week, but she squeals and cries so much, I'm ready for her to go. She's going to a petting zoo on a pumpkin patch in Dickson next weekend.

Today I've felt super depressed. Max didn't so much as say "hi" to me until 8 o' clock at night. I got into a huge slump all day over his ignoring me. It's not really his fault, and I don't blame him because I know I'm irrational, but I couldn't help the feeling, so when we started talking, the feeling didn't go away, and now I'm just in a bad mood. (I guess to add to that, the pig has stressed me the fuck out today. She craves my constant attention, and I just don't have the energy for that. And when she's not getting food or attention, she screams.

It's just, this is what fundamentally ruined my last relationship. You can go back to winter 2011-spring 2012 on this blog and see how much I bitched about my ex not even making the MINIMUM effort. His constant ignoring me led me to seek attention elsewhere. And where my attention went, my emotions followed. I never cheated on him physically. But I think I can finally admit to myself that I cheated on him emotionally. I became emotionally attached to the one person who WAS always there for me; resulting in me losing all interest and attachment to my ex. I wish I could have told him that instead of emotionally destroying him when we broke up. I just don't think I had it figured out back then.

School this semester isn't so bad. I really like two of my classes: American Media & Social Institutions (AMSI) and Interactive Design (basically HTML&CSS). I kinda like my Word & Image class because it's helping me break out of my procrastination addiction. It's a very demanding class, and I hate getting behind/not having my work more than almost anything, so I've been keeping up with the work, which means I've been doing my homework before midnight the night before it's due. The class I don't necessarily care for is Geography. I mean... it's geography. It's kinda boring. I was in a fifth class - Beginning Illustration - but it was the same professor I have for Word+Image, and I couldn't handle two very demanding and time-consuming classes (at least not until I learn to quit procrastinating all together) at once, so I dropped it.

So, here's a little TMI, but I currently have a UTI, and let me tell you, it has also been stressing me out. The worst part is I've had it for a month now because I can not bring myself to go to a doctor. I've tried everything I know to do to rid myself of it. I'm just so bad because after the first one, I have taken all the preventative measures to keep from getting another, and yet... here it is. I'm going to try one more thing this week before I give in and go to the doctor to get antibiotics. I just want antibiotics to be a last resort. I don't want the UTI bacteria to become resistant and then unstoppable...

Yeah, so... I guess that's all that's been going on with me lately.