It's like you don't even care at all

So, I told my mom about Max finally. I was really nervous.

I told her who he really is and that we're going to Memphis in May together and all that jazz. She said she was relieved. She knew that I was being secretive about this person I was talking to, and she thought it had to be someone she knew (she was right). But she thought it was Robert, who she doesn't particularly like. I don't know why she doesn't like him. I will never know. I feel like she has no reason to dislike him, but whatever. She disliked Pamp too.

Anyway, she said she always liked him and thought he was cute, so it's all good. (she didn't have a crush on it, she just recognized his good looks... just to make that clear).

I texted Max while he was at work and said that Mom knows now. He responded with, "Is that bad? Tell me everything!!" So I told him we should skype when he gets off work so I could tell him about it. He never responded until he got off work... saying he was going to go home and go to sleep. So, I guess he doesn't care.

I would give him the benefit of the doubt because I completely understand being too tired for social interaction, especially after working for a long time...

It's just that... every time skype is ever put on the table, it never happens. And it's always on him because I am ALWAYS at my computer and ready to skype at any moment (when I'm expecting it). I need to severely lower my expectations. I really don't even know why I suggested it at all. I should have known this would happen, but I didn't.

I know it's not a big deal at all, and that I'm doing a lot of unnecessary whining about it, but I just really need to vent when I really expect something to happen and get my hopes up and it doesn't happen...

And you know, the fact that my mom knows about us now actually kind of IS a big deal as far as this relationship is concerned.

And now he's messaging me on Facebook a lot, so he's obviously very tired (sarcasm warning). But I guess I can't ignore the effort, even if it's a small one.

I'm just in a bad mood now... And now all I want to do is sleep.

This may have something to do with me being abnormally overemotional lately which is weird because I usually have zero emotions at all.

what the fuck

(bah. but i still fucking love you)