What Am I Doing?

What am I doing?

It's 2:34 in the morning, and I'm waiting for a text. I already know exactly what it's going to say when I... got it!

And I was right. It says he's going to bed.

Anyway, I'm tired, but I don't want to sleep. I never want to sleep anymore. My life is weird right now. It is absolutely nothing that I

Oh my god I hear police outside. I just heard a walkie-talkie thing or whatever. Are they in the yard? I'm too scared to look... :o Uhh, they better not knock on the door because I don't want to have to be the one to answer it... I don't hear them anymore. Maybe they went to the neighbors house where they belong.

I just got up the courage to peek out the window. There's no one out there. Not even a police car in the circle. I did wait a whole minute, so I guess they left. And I know it wasn't the tv in the other room because I just checked, and it's on Futurama.

Ughh, all this is pointless anyway!

...I was saying my life is absolutely nothing how I would have expected it to be at this point. Not that I had high expectations. My life is good right now. It's just... a lot of changing.

I never update this blog much anymore because I really just don't have anything to say. All I ever do is either a)hang out with Nate or b) nothing. I spent the day with Nate yesterday. We went out and had Chinese and we came back to my house and watched Ink and baked cookies and just hung out. He always asks if I want to do something, like go somewhere or just DO something, ya know? I'm perfectly content with what we've been doing, which is nothing. But we're doing nothing together haha. I guess I'm boring. But it is economical! Not spending money on gas or any other things. I really hate people spending money on me, and when he asked if I wanted to hang out, he said he had just got paid and wanted to know if I wanted to do something. With which I replied that I don't know what there is to do around here and you don't have to spend money to have fun. You especially don't have to spend money on me. I guess I get it from my dad. I always want to pay for my own movie ticket or food or whatnot. Eh, but I digress.

We're hanging out again tomorrow. Idk what we'll do, but I know we'll most likely watch some movies. I love watching movies, and I hope he loves watching movies as much as he puts on because we watch a lot of movies, and, again, I am perfectly okay with that.

Tuesday I'm going back up to Davidson country to help clean out my great grandmother's house. Gonna be there for 3 days (which I was not expecting), but I guess that means I'll get to swim in the pool at Nana's some more. I think the plan is that we're going to stay in my great grandmother's house, but I don't like the idea of that. She died in that house. And I don't believe in ghosts, but I just think it'll be uncomfortable, ya know?

So, I won't be back until Thursday. And... ugh, there are a few more things I want to say, but I'm not going to. Nate is going away for two weeks to Pennsylvania and New York, so since I won't have choice A, I'll probably be doing choice B - nothing - for those two weeks. But maybe I'll chat up some friends and hang out with some other people. It won't be long now before my chances of hanging out with people will be very few and very far between.

Oh, and about college. Everyone else at other schools has already registered for classes and been to orientation. I have heard absolutely nothing from my school in awhile. I hope this is normal. I'm not worrying yet, but I hope I hear something from them soon - like roommate information! - because I'm about to be a little concerned.

I've typed way more than I intended. Oh, and there's still no good surveys. I've come to the conclusion that bzoink has turned to shit, and I should find another website for surveys.

Anyway. 3 til 3am. I guess I'll go to bed now.