My eyes are wide open.

Sometimes, I feel like my eyes are wide open. I feel like I have a better understanding of things than other people do. And I just don't get it. I don't feel special or that I'm better than anyone. I just don't get why everyone isn't this way. They should be. I'm very average. I believe I'm of average intelligence and at a normal level of understanding, so why isn't everyone else at my level? They should be.

And for that reason, I know that is why I respond to things the way that I do - with total lack of surprise. Nothing is surprising. As Jones would say, "There is nothing new under the sun." It takes a lot to get a reaction out of me because not a lot deserves a reaction.

Why am I even saying this?

I can't remember all the things I was going to say yesterday. Yesterday I was in a weird state of mind. Today I'm just tired and not feeling well. I never feel well anymore. It's been like this for at least three weeks now. I got sick, and I guess I haven't fully gotten over it yet.

There are a few things going on in my life right now. For some reason, I just don't want to talk about them. There's a lot on my mind, and I don't want to talk about any of that either.

Well, I'm going to go down some cough syrup. Partly to stop my coughing, but mostly to help me sleep.

Maybe one day I'll have something interesting to say.

Well, I feel you more than you'll ever know
And I feel more than what I'll ever show
I feel you more than you'll ever know
And I feel more than I'll ever show