Wondering

I don't really know what to say. I hate my life right now. I'm sick of everybody's shit. And how do they think I feel? What the fuck am I supposed to do? Excuse me for being selfish when I'm calling everybody else out on being selfish, but does nobody stop to think about what they are doing to me? Maybe I'm a hypocrite. I don't know.

I fall asleep worried, and I wake up depressed every single day. I hate it. I try to make it better sometimes, but it's just easier to go with the flow. I feel bad for being so distant to everybody. They've all quit talking to me by now. That's okay. Maybe when I feel like it, people will want to be close with me again. Lately, I just want to disappear. Not permanently but indefinitely.

I should do something more productive with my time.

I'm just letting my mind wander...

On a slightly brighter note, The Kingston Springs are going to be on the radio tonight. (The fuck? I hear people shooting fireworks outside...) There's a little something to look forward to. I don't know if it's an interview or what, but I hope they play some live songs.

...

And why am I plagued with these fucking headaches? God, the headaches alone are almost enough to drive me overboard.