I don't know why I'm writing here so often now. I guess really it all stems from procrastination... and actually having something to say... and not being too depressed to talk about it.
But this one is me actively procrastinating.
I actually had a good day today. I woke up at around 11 (feels good to sleep in on a Monday). Went to school to help Nikki with some computer stuff. I've completely forgotten how to use Adobe Illustrator, so I wasn't much help. I'm only somewhat decent with Photoshop.
Then I bought my textbook for Writing class finally. Nikki and I intend to share it and we were going to split the cost of buying it, but of course I went ahead and paid for it in full.
We went to the zoo. We caught the sea lion talk/show which is adorable. I got pictures of sheep and wolves (see, it was an educational visit because this counts as research for one of my classes). I'll probably explain the significance of that at another time.
Then I went to Art History class at 4:20, which is the only class I have on Mondays and Wednesdays. It's pretty nice. The class is ACTUALLY interesting. I enjoy learning about ancient civilizations. (It's more of an overall history class than an art history class). We're currently discussing ancient Egypt, which is pretty awesome. And we're going to talk about ancient Greece/Rome next! Those are my favorite. I'm actually excited.
I really like these lecture classes much more than studio classes... Though, Drawing II class this semester isn't so bad. I know I definitely chose the right professor.
Now, I just need to get some research done for IPC. I don't have to do all of it because my procrastinating ways will leave me finishing it tomorrow during lunch right before class. Eh, it'll give me something productive to do with that 2 hours between classes.
I've been thinking seriously about transferring. I mean, yes, as of right now, my mind is made up and I am absolutely transferring. But I don't know where yet or what I'll study. Not knowing what to study is definitely the biggest issue. I hate that I have to know what I'm going to do for the rest of my life...
I'm seriously considering transferring to Knoxville or Chattanooga because those are huge schools and I'm sure they offer a ton of classes. But I might also transfer somewhere in Middle Tennessee so I'll be closer to home and family (which will make the hard parts of my current life so much more bearable).
I don't want to sound stupid, but I'm seriously considering majoring in English. I actually ENJOY English and writing papers. It just seems like the natural choice. This is the stupid part, but my actual dream is probably to be a marine biologist and work with manatees. I know that sounds stupid to other people, but I seriously love manatees and sea creatures, and I would feel content with my life if I knew I was actively helping them. It would be cool to work at Sea World (they have manatees haha). Graphic Design is still a possibility too. I do enjoy working with art on the computer and would still like to learn all I can about it. But there are so many other things I would also like to learn about on the side. Like ancient Greek/Rome/Egypt and their mythologies. Astrology and astronomy. Psychology. It would be cool to take classes in these things. And art-related, I want to learn it all, but I don't think I want to work in that any art-related fields for the rest of my life except graphic design.
I know this is rambling, but it's really just things I've been thinking about a lot lately and I'm getting them all written down, for myself.
EDIT: Despite a good day, I'm going to bed unhappy. I know you're not supposed to let other people bring you down, but it's really hard not to, especially when they don't know they're doing it.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Rock Bottom
Is it bad when your own father tells you that he doesn't care if you die, just don't do it on his property? Because that's what he told my brother. We have tried to help them, but they just absolutely refuse to get better. And now she might be pregnant. She's also very close to going to jail. He probably is too. He should count his lucky stars that he actually has a job right now. If he gets into any trouble at all, his boss will not think twice about replacing him with someone who is NOT a convicted felon. I don't believe it's all her fault that they got this way, but she's a huge hindrance from them getting better. She quit her job THE DAY that he got his. Mom had to take their only vehicle from them (they've had 2 or 3 already taken away) because the title loan people are out for it. They're going down a road that only ends in jail or death.
Sometimes people just gotta hit rock bottom before they even consider changing.
But they'll never hit rock bottom when nobody will fucking let them.
Sometimes people just gotta hit rock bottom before they even consider changing.
But they'll never hit rock bottom when nobody will fucking let them.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Something for today
I slept til 2 and didn't do shit today. Feels good, man.
But since I've decided NOT to day anything, I now need something to do. So I chose this:
Have you ever made a sex tape?
No.
Do you look like a boring person?
Um, yes?
When's the last time someone made you feel like you mattered?
I don't know. Nate makes me feel that way when it's not overdone (because then it feels forced).
Are your teeth clean?
Always.
Have you ever seriously questioned your sanity?
I have. I know I'm not insane.
Do cheesy movies ever inspire you?
Not really.
Gun to your head, do you believe in God?
No.
Do you need a vacation?
I wish I could just go on vacation forever. I should find a sugar daddy and become a trophy wife. Haha, that's horrible.
How do you feel about your weight right now?
I've always been comfortable with it.
Have your parents ever told you that you are a disappointment?
Ha. No.
Do Graveyards thrill or terrify you?
I guess I'm neutral to them.
Would you ever snort pixie sticks?
That sounds extremely stupid.
Do you like tea?
Sometimes.
When's the last time you took a shower?
Earlier today.
Do your sheets come off your bed easily?
They come off easily, but they're a bitch to put back on...
Does music rule your life?
Kinda.
Oreos or chips ahoy?
Oreas. I hate chocolate chips.
Would you say your life is on the right track right now?
Um... I really don't know. I thing it's all wrong and this is not where I should be. So... I guess my answer is no.
Would you ever be a groupie?
No...
Do you have a better body or a better face?
I don't know...
What's the next thing you have to do that you're dreading?
The next four months...
Do you ever wear polos?
Hate 'em.
Have you ever popped your collar?
I have no collars to pop.
Do/Did you skip class?
Though it's easier and you don't need an excuse like back in high school, skipping class in college enough times has worse consequences.
Do you find butch lesbians attractive?
No.
Have you ever drank cough syrup to get high?
Cough syrup, even at the recommended dose, makes me feel like complete shit. I can't stand it anymore.
Does your head hurt right now?
Surprisingly, no. It's only a matter of time.
How often do you clip your nails?
I trim them maybe once every two weeks. They grow pretty fast, but I keep them long.
Is your phone always on low battery?
Only at the end of a long day.
What song is your current favorite?
Currently I'm really digging "I Come Alive" by The Used. I'm excited for their new album! :D
Who's the last girl to hug you?
Probably Nikki. I don't hang out with other girls, let alone hug them. If not her, then my mom.
Do you genuinely like her?
Yes.
Do you miss any of your exes?
I feel guilty though I know it's not my fault.
Do you like Travis Barker?
He's cool.
Did you ever take pottery class in High School?
I took a ceramics class, but we didn't make any pottery.
Have your parents ever suggested that you see a therapist?
I don't think so.
Have you ever felt yourself fainting?
Idts.
Would you ever dye all your hair bright pink?
Never. I'm not a big fan of bright colors, though I do like some unnatural colors.
What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word "Monday"?
My Mondays aren't so bad this semester. It just means I need to cram all that homework that I procrastinated on over the weekend.
How do you feel physically right now?
Like poop.
How do you feel emotionally?
Well for the moment.
How about mentally?
Content, I suppose.
Spiritually?
...?
Have you ever been friends with someone with bipolar disorder?
I'm not sure... Maybe.
What's your favorite brand of hairspray?
Um... I use Tresemme, but I don't have much experience with hairsprays.
Who's the last boy to make you cry?
I don't let boys cause me tears.
Did he know that he made you cry?
If it were to happen, I doubt I'd let it be known.
Do you think anyone actually cares about you?
I think a few people do.
Are you a salt person?
I HATE salt.
Have you ever been too scared to leave your couch?
(One of my roommates just came in drunk and loud...) I've been too socially withdrawn to leave my bed when I hear other people outside of my room.
When's the last time you felt like a total asshole?
I'd like to think I'm not much of an asshole on any occasion.
Is it hard for you to apologize even when you know you're wrong?
I don't see much weight in apologies.
Can you smell?
...weird question. Not at the moment cuz I have this stupid cold.
Do you consider yourself a mature person?
"I'm mature for my age. :))) <3" Hate that shit. But, I feel like I am. No one gets this way through an easy life.
Do you have long eye lashes?
I don't know. I guess they're normal length.
Has anyone ever threatened you?
I'm sure.
Have you ever been close with your mother?
I guess we're kinda close.
Would you ever own a rat?
I have before! I would love to have some again.
Could you fall asleep right now?
Most likely. I stayed up because I was going to Skype with Nate (He suggested it over the phone). But now he's saying he has to do homework..................... EDIT: I could have gone to bed hours ago. ): He says he's going to bed.................
Has your mouth ever been washed out with soap?
I've washed my own mouth out with soap before for reasons that will remain unmentioned. I think I heard my tastebuds screaming in pain.
Would you/Do you ever spank your kids?
Um... I don't have kids so this isn't an issue. I don't think spanking is cruel if it's just a hand. If you hit your kids with a belt or something though, fuck you.
Do you look pretty today?
No.
Does your family make you feel supported?
For the most part. They naively support my going to art school, but they were reluctant to support my leaving it. I will go nowhere in life with a degree from this place, which is why I'm going somewhere else.
Is it hard for you to admit when you're hurt?
It's hard for me to admit any kind of emotional defeat. I don't like to show weakness, and appearing any way other than "happy/content" is weak.
Are you good at walking in heels?
Yes, though I never wear them.
Would you genuinely be okay with having a woman as president?
It just depends who. A lot of people hate this idea, but I feel Hilary would actually know what she is doing what with her experience, but fuck Palin.
Who's the last person to post on your facebook wall?
As I was answering this, Bryan posted on it
Do you like this person?
He's a cool dude.
If you could fuck one cartoon character, which one would it be?
Do I look like a weeaboo to you?
Did that question really freak you out?
It made me think of the type of person who really, really annoys me (to put it lightly), like weeaboos and furries.
Do you feel you're capable of being loved?
I've answer this before. Yes.
When's the last time you ate something?
A couple hours ago.
Do you feel like crying?
Not at the moment. Progress.
When's the last time you felt completely and totally alone?
Too often.
What do you do when you can't sleep?
Lie in bed annoyed.
Do you like pez?
Nahh.
Have you ever collected pez dispensers.
No.
Have you ever used jump roping as a work out?
Not willingly.
What's your favorite type of sushi?
Never had it.
Do you like sushi?
I wouldn't know.
Would you ever name your kid sushi?
Never.
How much money would you spend to see Eminem live?
I probably wouldn't see Eminem live. Wouldn't want to be surrounded by those kinds of people.
Do you think afros are sexy?
Not really. I think they're cool though.
How about dreads?
It's hard to make dreads actually look good and kempt.
Have you ever been part of a band?
No.
Have you ever fasted?
No.
What's the nicest thing your parents have ever done for you?
I dunno... lots of things I guess.
Do you find curse words offensive?
Not at all.
Have you ever had the urge to jump off a cliff?
I've had the urge to do other things that could potentially end fatally but never to jump off a cliff.
Do you think your mom would be proud of you if she knew everything?
Sure.
Would anyone be proud of you?
I guess I don't need anyone's approval, but I feel they would.
Have you ever considered being a cop?
Nope. Never.
Do you ever tell Chuck Norris jokes?
Only to my dad cuz he laughs uncontrollably and that's funnier to me than the jokes themselves.
If someone tried to attack you would you fight back?
I'd have to, wouldn't I?
Do you pay attention to the news?
Not anymore.
Who's the person you want to kiss right now?
I think more than anything I'd just like to fall asleep next to someone right now. Not just anyone obviously.
Are you okay with being alone?
Usually. In fact, a lot of the time, I prefer it.
Have you ever donated blood?
No. I would though.
Have you ever felt lifeless?
Uh, you mean like lethargic? Absolutely.
What's the worst feeling in the world?
Feeling trapped, stuck, abandoned, etc.
Have you ever tried harder to appreciate the little things in life?
I don't have to try very hard to do that in the first place. I may not always make it known, but I do appreciate a lot of things and don't take them for granted.
Are you in love?
I'm not sure and don't know if I ever will be.
But since I've decided NOT to day anything, I now need something to do. So I chose this:
Have you ever made a sex tape?
No.
Do you look like a boring person?
Um, yes?
When's the last time someone made you feel like you mattered?
I don't know. Nate makes me feel that way when it's not overdone (because then it feels forced).
Are your teeth clean?
Always.
Have you ever seriously questioned your sanity?
I have. I know I'm not insane.
Do cheesy movies ever inspire you?
Not really.
Gun to your head, do you believe in God?
No.
Do you need a vacation?
I wish I could just go on vacation forever. I should find a sugar daddy and become a trophy wife. Haha, that's horrible.
How do you feel about your weight right now?
I've always been comfortable with it.
Have your parents ever told you that you are a disappointment?
Ha. No.
Do Graveyards thrill or terrify you?
I guess I'm neutral to them.
Would you ever snort pixie sticks?
That sounds extremely stupid.
Do you like tea?
Sometimes.
When's the last time you took a shower?
Earlier today.
Do your sheets come off your bed easily?
They come off easily, but they're a bitch to put back on...
Does music rule your life?
Kinda.
Oreos or chips ahoy?
Oreas. I hate chocolate chips.
Would you say your life is on the right track right now?
Um... I really don't know. I thing it's all wrong and this is not where I should be. So... I guess my answer is no.
Would you ever be a groupie?
No...
Do you have a better body or a better face?
I don't know...
What's the next thing you have to do that you're dreading?
The next four months...
Do you ever wear polos?
Hate 'em.
Have you ever popped your collar?
I have no collars to pop.
Do/Did you skip class?
Though it's easier and you don't need an excuse like back in high school, skipping class in college enough times has worse consequences.
Do you find butch lesbians attractive?
No.
Have you ever drank cough syrup to get high?
Cough syrup, even at the recommended dose, makes me feel like complete shit. I can't stand it anymore.
Does your head hurt right now?
Surprisingly, no. It's only a matter of time.
How often do you clip your nails?
I trim them maybe once every two weeks. They grow pretty fast, but I keep them long.
Is your phone always on low battery?
Only at the end of a long day.
What song is your current favorite?
Currently I'm really digging "I Come Alive" by The Used. I'm excited for their new album! :D
Who's the last girl to hug you?
Probably Nikki. I don't hang out with other girls, let alone hug them. If not her, then my mom.
Do you genuinely like her?
Yes.
Do you miss any of your exes?
I feel guilty though I know it's not my fault.
Do you like Travis Barker?
He's cool.
Did you ever take pottery class in High School?
I took a ceramics class, but we didn't make any pottery.
Have your parents ever suggested that you see a therapist?
I don't think so.
Have you ever felt yourself fainting?
Idts.
Would you ever dye all your hair bright pink?
Never. I'm not a big fan of bright colors, though I do like some unnatural colors.
What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word "Monday"?
My Mondays aren't so bad this semester. It just means I need to cram all that homework that I procrastinated on over the weekend.
How do you feel physically right now?
Like poop.
How do you feel emotionally?
Well for the moment.
How about mentally?
Content, I suppose.
Spiritually?
...?
Have you ever been friends with someone with bipolar disorder?
I'm not sure... Maybe.
What's your favorite brand of hairspray?
Um... I use Tresemme, but I don't have much experience with hairsprays.
Who's the last boy to make you cry?
I don't let boys cause me tears.
Did he know that he made you cry?
If it were to happen, I doubt I'd let it be known.
Do you think anyone actually cares about you?
I think a few people do.
Are you a salt person?
I HATE salt.
Have you ever been too scared to leave your couch?
(One of my roommates just came in drunk and loud...) I've been too socially withdrawn to leave my bed when I hear other people outside of my room.
When's the last time you felt like a total asshole?
I'd like to think I'm not much of an asshole on any occasion.
Is it hard for you to apologize even when you know you're wrong?
I don't see much weight in apologies.
Can you smell?
...weird question. Not at the moment cuz I have this stupid cold.
Do you consider yourself a mature person?
"I'm mature for my age. :))) <3" Hate that shit. But, I feel like I am. No one gets this way through an easy life.
Do you have long eye lashes?
I don't know. I guess they're normal length.
Has anyone ever threatened you?
I'm sure.
Have you ever been close with your mother?
I guess we're kinda close.
Would you ever own a rat?
I have before! I would love to have some again.
Could you fall asleep right now?
Most likely. I stayed up because I was going to Skype with Nate (He suggested it over the phone). But now he's saying he has to do homework..................... EDIT: I could have gone to bed hours ago. ): He says he's going to bed.................
Has your mouth ever been washed out with soap?
I've washed my own mouth out with soap before for reasons that will remain unmentioned. I think I heard my tastebuds screaming in pain.
Would you/Do you ever spank your kids?
Um... I don't have kids so this isn't an issue. I don't think spanking is cruel if it's just a hand. If you hit your kids with a belt or something though, fuck you.
Do you look pretty today?
No.
Does your family make you feel supported?
For the most part. They naively support my going to art school, but they were reluctant to support my leaving it. I will go nowhere in life with a degree from this place, which is why I'm going somewhere else.
Is it hard for you to admit when you're hurt?
It's hard for me to admit any kind of emotional defeat. I don't like to show weakness, and appearing any way other than "happy/content" is weak.
Are you good at walking in heels?
Yes, though I never wear them.
Would you genuinely be okay with having a woman as president?
It just depends who. A lot of people hate this idea, but I feel Hilary would actually know what she is doing what with her experience, but fuck Palin.
Who's the last person to post on your facebook wall?
As I was answering this, Bryan posted on it
Do you like this person?
He's a cool dude.
If you could fuck one cartoon character, which one would it be?
Do I look like a weeaboo to you?
Did that question really freak you out?
It made me think of the type of person who really, really annoys me (to put it lightly), like weeaboos and furries.
Do you feel you're capable of being loved?
I've answer this before. Yes.
When's the last time you ate something?
A couple hours ago.
Do you feel like crying?
Not at the moment. Progress.
When's the last time you felt completely and totally alone?
Too often.
What do you do when you can't sleep?
Lie in bed annoyed.
Do you like pez?
Nahh.
Have you ever collected pez dispensers.
No.
Have you ever used jump roping as a work out?
Not willingly.
What's your favorite type of sushi?
Never had it.
Do you like sushi?
I wouldn't know.
Would you ever name your kid sushi?
Never.
How much money would you spend to see Eminem live?
I probably wouldn't see Eminem live. Wouldn't want to be surrounded by those kinds of people.
Do you think afros are sexy?
Not really. I think they're cool though.
How about dreads?
It's hard to make dreads actually look good and kempt.
Have you ever been part of a band?
No.
Have you ever fasted?
No.
What's the nicest thing your parents have ever done for you?
I dunno... lots of things I guess.
Do you find curse words offensive?
Not at all.
Have you ever had the urge to jump off a cliff?
I've had the urge to do other things that could potentially end fatally but never to jump off a cliff.
Do you think your mom would be proud of you if she knew everything?
Sure.
Would anyone be proud of you?
I guess I don't need anyone's approval, but I feel they would.
Have you ever considered being a cop?
Nope. Never.
Do you ever tell Chuck Norris jokes?
Only to my dad cuz he laughs uncontrollably and that's funnier to me than the jokes themselves.
If someone tried to attack you would you fight back?
I'd have to, wouldn't I?
Do you pay attention to the news?
Not anymore.
Who's the person you want to kiss right now?
I think more than anything I'd just like to fall asleep next to someone right now. Not just anyone obviously.
Are you okay with being alone?
Usually. In fact, a lot of the time, I prefer it.
Have you ever donated blood?
No. I would though.
Have you ever felt lifeless?
Uh, you mean like lethargic? Absolutely.
What's the worst feeling in the world?
Feeling trapped, stuck, abandoned, etc.
Have you ever tried harder to appreciate the little things in life?
I don't have to try very hard to do that in the first place. I may not always make it known, but I do appreciate a lot of things and don't take them for granted.
Are you in love?
I'm not sure and don't know if I ever will be.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Lovely
A few days ago, Nikki wanted to take her dog for a walk (we had a cat and a dog here for a few days. Pets aren't allowed in the dorm. We're rebels). We were going to go walk him Downtown, but as soon as we got in the truck it started raining. We, instead, drove to the [Mississippi] river where the storm was coming in. It was scary windy and there was lightning and the sky was super black (the sky does not get black at night in Memphis... it gets orange. Gross). Dillon, Nikki, and I hung out there for awhile. When we got back in the truck to head back to the dorm, the sirens started going off. Tornadoes! I'm terrified of tornadoes and bad weather... If I had written this the day after it happened, I'd go into much more detail, but everything turned out well. We went to Dillon's apartment and hung out there until the sirens quit. Then we stayed way after that. Nikki fell asleep, and Dillon drove me back to the dorm at 2am. (I would have definitely said more about that had I not waited til now, but I'm just leaving it at that).
Uh... my week has been okay I guess. I'm stressed with the amount of homework I've had and will have the entire semester. I don't really know what to say. I don't remember what happened throughout the week. I am, however, very proud of myself for actually being productive this week and actually doing homework and actually not staying up past midnight to finish it. Feels good, man. I'm gonna try to keep it up.
Today was pretty good. Drawing class went well. I actually like what I made in there today. After class (which was all day 9am-3:30pm) we randomly hung out with Eric and JT and went to Subway. Eric showed us a movie theater that is SO CLOSE BY, like within walking distance. Damn place is tucked away in a corner in an alley almost. We decided we're all going to go see a movie soon! (: We were going to go to Trolly Night tonight, but it was short notice for everyone and everyone had already pre-made plans. Nikki left to help Dillon move. JT had an appointment somewhere. Eric and I watched half of Gangs of New York, then he had to go meet up with some people. And, I've been sitting here on the internet since then.
I'm sick. ): The other night I was Skyping Nate and he was saying that he was sick. I said, "I'm probably jinxing myself, but I haven't been sick since that time I got laryngitis [in May last year]." I'm not superstitious at all, but I'll be damned: I woke up sick the next day. It's just a cold, but it's the annoying kind. Sore throat, coughing, and today: runny nose. The nose is the worst. I am in need of soft tissues and Benadryl...
Right now I'm waiting for Nate to get back from smoking to Skype me.
One last thing, I used the word "exuberant" today, and just to double-check that I was using it correctly (spoiler alert: I was), I looked up the definition of it. I'm quite fond of these definitions and use of nice words:
1. effusively and almost uninhibitedly enthusiastic; lavishly abundant: an exuberant welcome for the hero.
2. abounding in vitality; extremely joyful and vigorous.
Isn't that lovely?
Uh... my week has been okay I guess. I'm stressed with the amount of homework I've had and will have the entire semester. I don't really know what to say. I don't remember what happened throughout the week. I am, however, very proud of myself for actually being productive this week and actually doing homework and actually not staying up past midnight to finish it. Feels good, man. I'm gonna try to keep it up.
Today was pretty good. Drawing class went well. I actually like what I made in there today. After class (which was all day 9am-3:30pm) we randomly hung out with Eric and JT and went to Subway. Eric showed us a movie theater that is SO CLOSE BY, like within walking distance. Damn place is tucked away in a corner in an alley almost. We decided we're all going to go see a movie soon! (: We were going to go to Trolly Night tonight, but it was short notice for everyone and everyone had already pre-made plans. Nikki left to help Dillon move. JT had an appointment somewhere. Eric and I watched half of Gangs of New York, then he had to go meet up with some people. And, I've been sitting here on the internet since then.
I'm sick. ): The other night I was Skyping Nate and he was saying that he was sick. I said, "I'm probably jinxing myself, but I haven't been sick since that time I got laryngitis [in May last year]." I'm not superstitious at all, but I'll be damned: I woke up sick the next day. It's just a cold, but it's the annoying kind. Sore throat, coughing, and today: runny nose. The nose is the worst. I am in need of soft tissues and Benadryl...
Right now I'm waiting for Nate to get back from smoking to Skype me.
One last thing, I used the word "exuberant" today, and just to double-check that I was using it correctly (spoiler alert: I was), I looked up the definition of it. I'm quite fond of these definitions and use of nice words:
1. effusively and almost uninhibitedly enthusiastic; lavishly abundant: an exuberant welcome for the hero.
2. abounding in vitality; extremely joyful and vigorous.
Isn't that lovely?
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Permanently Tired
Last night I was trying to go to bed somewhat early. One reason is because I was ridiculously tired all day, and another reason is because mom was coming over the next day.
Well, at about 2 in the morning, Aaliyah, AJ, and AJ's friend Travis came in drunk and being really loud. I'm a super light sleeper, so it woke me up. I heard AJ ask where me and Nikki were and Aaliyah told him we were asleep. So... he came in my room. Haha. I was awake already, and he tried to get me to hang out, but I said no. Then he laid in my bed with me, and I told him I was too nice to push him in the floor. It was pretty funny though. Eventually told him to let me go back to sleep and he left without making it difficult. My boyfriend would probably be very displeased with that situation. If he knew.
Mom came over today. We got some groceries and school supplies. I only got $23-worth of supplies, which was a box of charcoal and 5 sheets of Stonehenge paper. I got a 15% discount for being a student though. We went to Plato's Closet to get a dress shirt for Dillon. Uh... not a lot happened today actually.
I really just hate the way this school runs things. They don't send out supply lists beforehand. You get your list the first day of class. You're expected to have all of your supplies and textbooks by the very next class (within 2 days). Last semester I had to get $400-worth of books and supplies on a WEDNESDAY. We don't get our refund checks until 3 weeks after school starts. I don't know where they expect us to get all this money so suddenly, but they blatantly don't care. They say there is "no excuse." They like saying that... In some classes, if you have no source of income, you're destined to fail.
So... my classes aren't so bad this semester, I guess. Just one. I'm terrified of that class... I can't do public speaking. I will skip class every time... but knowing me, I probably won't. Ugh... I've been trying to find a way to add another class, so I can drop that one. But the class I want to add doesn't have any openings, and I don't see any becoming available ever. So, I guess I'm stuck with this schedule. I hate how the fucking staff gives you such a hard time with schedule changes. Then again, I hate how this school does everything.
Today, mom was telling me I should join the Navy. She's serious too. I asked her, "Could I drop out of school if I joined?" And she said yes. Ha. She knows how much I hate it, but she won't let me just quit. That's good, I suppose, but I know if I just dropped everything right now and went home, I would never regret it. I don't know about joining the military though... I couldn't do that commitment. I don't like not having the option to quit (not saying I'm guaranteed to quit, but if the choice were there, I'd be more inclined to try it out).
Anemia is a bitch. No matter how much or how little sleep I get, I am constantly tired. If it's not sleepiness, it's my muscles. I could pass out right now... but I'm babysitting Nikki's cat and dog. We're not supposed to have animals in the dorm, but they're only here for a few hours. Then when Nikki and Dillon get back from their date, the animals are going to Dillon's house for the weekend. And when Nikki's mom gets back from Oklahoma, they're going back to Nashville with her.
This was a boring post.
Well, at about 2 in the morning, Aaliyah, AJ, and AJ's friend Travis came in drunk and being really loud. I'm a super light sleeper, so it woke me up. I heard AJ ask where me and Nikki were and Aaliyah told him we were asleep. So... he came in my room. Haha. I was awake already, and he tried to get me to hang out, but I said no. Then he laid in my bed with me, and I told him I was too nice to push him in the floor. It was pretty funny though. Eventually told him to let me go back to sleep and he left without making it difficult. My boyfriend would probably be very displeased with that situation. If he knew.
Mom came over today. We got some groceries and school supplies. I only got $23-worth of supplies, which was a box of charcoal and 5 sheets of Stonehenge paper. I got a 15% discount for being a student though. We went to Plato's Closet to get a dress shirt for Dillon. Uh... not a lot happened today actually.
I really just hate the way this school runs things. They don't send out supply lists beforehand. You get your list the first day of class. You're expected to have all of your supplies and textbooks by the very next class (within 2 days). Last semester I had to get $400-worth of books and supplies on a WEDNESDAY. We don't get our refund checks until 3 weeks after school starts. I don't know where they expect us to get all this money so suddenly, but they blatantly don't care. They say there is "no excuse." They like saying that... In some classes, if you have no source of income, you're destined to fail.
So... my classes aren't so bad this semester, I guess. Just one. I'm terrified of that class... I can't do public speaking. I will skip class every time... but knowing me, I probably won't. Ugh... I've been trying to find a way to add another class, so I can drop that one. But the class I want to add doesn't have any openings, and I don't see any becoming available ever. So, I guess I'm stuck with this schedule. I hate how the fucking staff gives you such a hard time with schedule changes. Then again, I hate how this school does everything.
Today, mom was telling me I should join the Navy. She's serious too. I asked her, "Could I drop out of school if I joined?" And she said yes. Ha. She knows how much I hate it, but she won't let me just quit. That's good, I suppose, but I know if I just dropped everything right now and went home, I would never regret it. I don't know about joining the military though... I couldn't do that commitment. I don't like not having the option to quit (not saying I'm guaranteed to quit, but if the choice were there, I'd be more inclined to try it out).
Anemia is a bitch. No matter how much or how little sleep I get, I am constantly tired. If it's not sleepiness, it's my muscles. I could pass out right now... but I'm babysitting Nikki's cat and dog. We're not supposed to have animals in the dorm, but they're only here for a few hours. Then when Nikki and Dillon get back from their date, the animals are going to Dillon's house for the weekend. And when Nikki's mom gets back from Oklahoma, they're going back to Nashville with her.
This was a boring post.
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