Lovely

A few days ago, Nikki wanted to take her dog for a walk (we had a cat and a dog here for a few days. Pets aren't allowed in the dorm. We're rebels). We were going to go walk him Downtown, but as soon as we got in the truck it started raining. We, instead, drove to the [Mississippi] river where the storm was coming in. It was scary windy and there was lightning and the sky was super black (the sky does not get black at night in Memphis... it gets orange. Gross). Dillon, Nikki, and I hung out there for awhile. When we got back in the truck to head back to the dorm, the sirens started going off. Tornadoes! I'm terrified of tornadoes and bad weather... If I had written this the day after it happened, I'd go into much more detail, but everything turned out well. We went to Dillon's apartment and hung out there until the sirens quit. Then we stayed way after that. Nikki fell asleep, and Dillon drove me back to the dorm at 2am. (I would have definitely said more about that had I not waited til now, but I'm just leaving it at that).

Uh... my week has been okay I guess. I'm stressed with the amount of homework I've had and will have the entire semester. I don't really know what to say. I don't remember what happened throughout the week. I am, however, very proud of myself for actually being productive this week and actually doing homework and actually not staying up past midnight to finish it. Feels good, man. I'm gonna try to keep it up.

Today was pretty good. Drawing class went well. I actually like what I made in there today. After class (which was all day 9am-3:30pm) we randomly hung out with Eric and JT and went to Subway. Eric showed us a movie theater that is SO CLOSE BY, like within walking distance. Damn place is tucked away in a corner in an alley almost. We decided we're all going to go see a movie soon! (: We were going to go to Trolly Night tonight, but it was short notice for everyone and everyone had already pre-made plans. Nikki left to help Dillon move. JT had an appointment somewhere. Eric and I watched half of Gangs of New York, then he had to go meet up with some people. And, I've been sitting here on the internet since then.

I'm sick. ): The other night I was Skyping Nate and he was saying that he was sick. I said, "I'm probably jinxing myself, but I haven't been sick since that time I got laryngitis [in May last year]." I'm not superstitious at all, but I'll be damned: I woke up sick the next day. It's just a cold, but it's the annoying kind. Sore throat, coughing, and today: runny nose. The nose is the worst. I am in need of soft tissues and Benadryl...

Right now I'm waiting for Nate to get back from smoking to Skype me.

One last thing, I used the word "exuberant" today, and just to double-check that I was using it correctly (spoiler alert: I was), I looked up the definition of it. I'm quite fond of these definitions and use of nice words:

1. effusively and almost uninhibitedly enthusiastic; lavishly abundant: an exuberant welcome for the hero.
2. abounding in vitality; extremely joyful and vigorous.

Isn't that lovely?

Permanently Tired

Last night I was trying to go to bed somewhat early. One reason is because I was ridiculously tired all day, and another reason is because mom was coming over the next day.

Well, at about 2 in the morning, Aaliyah, AJ, and AJ's friend Travis came in drunk and being really loud. I'm a super light sleeper, so it woke me up. I heard AJ ask where me and Nikki were and Aaliyah told him we were asleep. So... he came in my room. Haha. I was awake already, and he tried to get me to hang out, but I said no. Then he laid in my bed with me, and I told him I was too nice to push him in the floor. It was pretty funny though. Eventually told him to let me go back to sleep and he left without making it difficult. My boyfriend would probably be very displeased with that situation. If he knew.

Mom came over today. We got some groceries and school supplies. I only got $23-worth of supplies, which was a box of charcoal and 5 sheets of Stonehenge paper. I got a 15% discount for being a student though. We went to Plato's Closet to get a dress shirt for Dillon. Uh... not a lot happened today actually.

I really just hate the way this school runs things. They don't send out supply lists beforehand. You get your list the first day of class. You're expected to have all of your supplies and textbooks by the very next class (within 2 days). Last semester I had to get $400-worth of books and supplies on a WEDNESDAY. We don't get our refund checks until 3 weeks after school starts. I don't know where they expect us to get all this money so suddenly, but they blatantly don't care. They say there is "no excuse." They like saying that... In some classes, if you have no source of income, you're destined to fail.

So... my classes aren't so bad this semester, I guess. Just one. I'm terrified of that class... I can't do public speaking. I will skip class every time... but knowing me, I probably won't. Ugh... I've been trying to find a way to add another class, so I can drop that one. But the class I want to add doesn't have any openings, and I don't see any becoming available ever. So, I guess I'm stuck with this schedule. I hate how the fucking staff gives you such a hard time with schedule changes. Then again, I hate how this school does everything.

Today, mom was telling me I should join the Navy. She's serious too. I asked her, "Could I drop out of school if I joined?" And she said yes. Ha. She knows how much I hate it, but she won't let me just quit. That's good, I suppose, but I know if I just dropped everything right now and went home, I would never regret it. I don't know about joining the military though... I couldn't do that commitment. I don't like not having the option to quit (not saying I'm guaranteed to quit, but if the choice were there, I'd be more inclined to try it out).

Anemia is a bitch. No matter how much or how little sleep I get, I am constantly tired. If it's not sleepiness, it's my muscles. I could pass out right now... but I'm babysitting Nikki's cat and dog. We're not supposed to have animals in the dorm, but they're only here for a few hours. Then when Nikki and Dillon get back from their date, the animals are going to Dillon's house for the weekend. And when Nikki's mom gets back from Oklahoma, they're going back to Nashville with her.

This was a boring post.

What I'm saying is...

I'm not cut out for this.



Aside from the fact that this is one of my favorite movies of all time, this is pretty relevant and accurate. I could say all the things that are wrong right now, but I've gone over it in my head so many times that it just seems redundant now. I know the next 5 months are going to be a very tiny portion of the rest of my life, but I still have to live through it. Day. By. Day.

You ever just want to go to sleep and never wake up?

Yeah.

Ionevencare

I just found out my mom threw away my watercolor. It was on a paper plate as a palette, and it was little dry globs of paint all around the edge, so I guess I see how she thought it was trash cuz the paint was "dried up," but watercolor is MEANT TO BE THAT WAYYY! D; I'm really quite devastated. I've had that paint for two years and it was some damn good watercolor. :/

Anyway, I want to talk about my last few days in order. Gotta keep shit organized.

The other day I kinda got to hang out with (cousin)Nick a little. He offered for me to hang out with him and some friends in downtown Nashville and then go to the mall later. I agreed because it got me out of going to a little kids' basketball game. I was really worried at first because I was expecting it to be awkward and uncomfortable because I thought a certain someone was going to be there too. But he wasn't, so it was all good. I was with Nick, his girlfriend, and her friend Courtney. While in Downtown, I texted Nikki and told her to come to Downtown. Mostly because I didn't want to spend my entire day with a bunch of high school kids. So, Nikki came Downtown, and we "buried" her fish in the river. (Her fish "Isaac" died a couple days before). I gave the parting words, "That'll do, fish." And that was that. Haha.

Then I left with Nikki and we went to the mall. My cousin and his entourage were at the mall too, but we just weren't all together. Nikki and I were total girls and looked at shoes and clothes. Then we went to BK and later Walmart, and my cousin just so happened to be at Walmart too. We didn't plan that.

At Walmart, Nikki ran into these two dudes that she knew from high school. They were absolutely fried. One of them didn't say anything, and the one that did talk when Nikki introduced me and said "We live together" the guy asked, "Are you two... *crossed his fingers*" Implying that we were "together." And we said no, then he said, "Aww, cuz if you were that would be adorable." Haha. THen Nikki said, "Yes, we are a cute little interracial lesbian couple." I guess we might as well be. Everyone seems to think we are. Ionevencare. Ha.

Nana was mad when Nick and I got home because it was 11:30 and she thought he was passed curfew (he's 17). The next morning we explained to her that on the weekend, for seventeen-year-old's, curfew is midnight.

Um... then I came home yesterday and hung out with my friend Nick (as opposed to my cousin. I know, I know too many Nicks). I call him Fonz on here as to not get him confused. So, Fonz and I watched From Dusk Til Dawn, Fight Club, and Hesher. And we played games on his Kindle Fire. I was actually winning at Battleship, but we never finished playing. He beat me at checkers and Reversi. I lose at everything. Haha. Again, Ionevencare.

Today I dyed my hair. Same color as always, but it always surprises me how dark it is. It looks pretty black at the moment, but it'll fade to a nice dark brown in a week or so.

Now I have to do laundry and pack all my shit so I can go back to Memphis tomorrow.

I know I'm forgetting stuff cuz I typed this quickly, but oh well. This'll do for now.